A tropical honeymoon sounds pretty good right now…

Doesn’t it?

And pegging, pegging always sounds good.

And breaking down the stigma around herpes — an incredibly common STD that will not ruin your sex life or any other aspect of your life, panic-mongering aside — is pretty sweet too.

That’s the logic behind “To Have and To Hold,” my romantic, erotic honeymoon pegging story for a cause. If “logic” is the right word when my primary goal was to evoke “Pegging. Mm. Hot.” and “Da’awww”. But also to raise some money for a good cause– With every copy sold, $1 will be donated to the Center for Sexual Pleasure and Health (http://www.thecsph.org/), an organization that promotes education and dialogue about sexuality.

In the words of my sensitivity reader, Ella Dawson, “It is SO CUTE and THOUGHTFUL and HOT and FULL OF HERPES REPRESENTATION.

Y’all should donate + read!”

Here’s an excerpt to pique your interest:

“Maybe you should stop trying to make sense of my kinks,” he says, smiling.

“Yeah, maybe I should.”

With some reluctance, she takes her hand from his ass and leans over the side of the bed for her suitcase. He takes the items as she hands them up. The lube, the packets of gloves and condoms, and then the double-headed dildo. It’s in a marbled blue pattern that reminds her of the ocean. The “flesh” color didn’t match either of their skin tones, too pale for hers and too dark for his, and actually, she likes that this one doesn’t look at all realistic. What about any of this is realistic? She’s married, to James, they’re on their honeymoon, the view outside her window looks like a postcard, and she’s about to fuck him just as he wants her to.

Claire leans over him as he spreads his legs, opening a space for her, exposing himself to her. She lifts his balls, already high and tight with his erection, and looks at him. He shivers, a tremble working its way up his thighs and turning into a wiggle along his hips and spine, as if her examination is overwhelming.

“You look good,” she says. “You’re so turned on.” One gloved finger runs along his cock, tracing a vein. “You don’t need to be shy.”

She actually can’t see a lot, his modesty protected by shadows and a little dark, curling hair. In itself that’s sexy to her. Claire has never thought of herself as the kind of person to be turned on by despoiling virgins, but there it is.

She brushes his hole with a lubed fingertip. “Okay?”

He pushes himself a little wider, another visible tremor moving along his legs. “Yes. Please.”

She feels him flex against her fingertip, not resisting but uncertain, so obviously self-conscious that it makes her smile coyly herself. As she pushes into him, his reaction is like stuttering, stammering, a shy flutter of muscles around her that makes her heart skip beats with utter adoration. He’s adorable.

“Oh my god,” she whispers as she slips further inside, eased by the slick lubricant and by the way he relaxes with a deep, slow breath. In a way it’s simpler than she feared but it’s also astonishing, this intimate opening of his body for her.

For adult fans of gentle femdom and vanilla dynamics alike, “To Have and to Hold” is now available not only on Amazon but on Smashwords, Smashwords’ broader distribution (Nook, Kobo, iBooks, and more), and for direct download on Gumroad!

LibraryThing members take note:  to celebrate “To Have and To Hold”s broad distribution release, I’m giving away 10 copies on LibraryThing. The giveaway ends April 18. You may need to search the page for “erotic” or “pegging” or scroll a bit to reach it, but it’s one of the few giveaways advertising both, so that makes it an easy find.